Humming Rain

Made this lasagna today. It uses zucchini instead of noodles, and hopefully won’t taste absolutely terrible or be a soggy mess, if I’m lucky. It’s one of the more complicated dishes I’ve made for myself in a while. The pandemic has a way of causing me to just not really cook in a new and different fashion than when I normally get down. But both during covid times and not, cooking for other people is when I make more than the basics, and that hasn’t been happening a lot recently. Because Covid. Yup. Uh, yay lasagna!

I spent a little bit of time over the weekend just thinking about myself and what I’m doing in life. Which is a real good way to bum yourself out, but I think it actually helped a little bit. The biggest revelation was that because the pandemic isn’t ending anytime soon (if there was a vaccine tomorrow, I imagine it’d be 3 months before things got the semi-normal anyway), I should try to focus on being happy on my lonesome. I still want to find a teammate or teammates, either in the form of romantic partners or more friends (or, ideally, both). But holding off on doing stuff until those people walk into my life from offstage seems like a good way to feel like I’m just bummed with no way out. And fuck that.

So I made myself a little list of projects I want to finish by the end of the year. It’s mostly finishing up things I’ve been working on: getting things edited, self-publishing stuff, making a game. Little things that will both let me have a Finished Project for the first time in a while, and free up the brainspace of wondering when I’m going to get back to it. And one of them will hopefully be a computer game that other people can play! Because I miss game design, and Twine seems interesting.

Beyond all that, I’m happy the election is over over, and that Biden won. He may be a little centerist for my taste, but he’s certainly better than the alternative. And seeing all of my friends’ stress levels just drop like 50% is worth it on its own.

Just a little update today, but I’ll leave you with this track, Deep Like Airline Failure, by Proem. I remembered it existed yesterday and it’s just as gorgeous and lovely as I remembered. Plus it’s the kind of track I think would be cool to choreograph a dance to.