Time Enough At Last

I’ve been experiencing a weird thing since starting the new job. It sometimes feels like I have more time in a lot of ways, not less. Even though I’ve gone from being funemployed to working full time.

I have a few theories about why this is. I think the biggest one is that having limited time outside of work forces me to focus. If I want to write a blog post? Better start it now. Need to work out? Don’t have time to dither, I better start right when I get home. Because of this, on some days, at least, I get a lot more done. Even if I don’t get something done, it’s usually because I made the conscious decision not to do it, which is a way less taxing way of not completing a task than procrastinating until it simply can’t get done that day.

Some of it, too, is logistics. I no longer carpool, which means that I’m 100% in control of my commute, insofar as I only go the places I need/want to go, without needing to consider someone else’s needs. Which feels a little selfish to say. But I think it gives me a more complete ownership over my time than I had before.

Now, the new schedule isn’t perfect. There’s some days where I’m so beat that I can’t do much besides shower, sit around/hang out, and go to bed. And I’m not sure how I’m going to handle school in and among work and my other obligations, since I took a lot of advantage of the flexibility of my time to get schoolwork done, previously. But I’ll find out! And for now, things feel pretty good. I think I can make this hustle work. And that feeling of positivity and agency is a nice change.

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